Wednesday, May 27, 2009
that's it, mann.
That's It Man. Yes, this might be the END. But i don't know. I've done something i shouldnt've done. Gawsh, i can't believe this would affect them so much. Especially, HAHA.
So, i'm attached. (no need to know with who).. But whoever i'm attached with, i'm not blaming you for this particular incident. You're nt to be blamed. This is between me and THEM. Gawsh, here we go. *takes deep breath*
Today, have been one of the MOST horrible day ever. I can't believe everything was so nice the day before but then today, i don't even know what to name it...
To the BEST,
I'm definitely to be blamed and i know this is my EFFING fault. I'm sorry. The relationship has to be kept low-profiled. Sorie... The reason for not telling you people, again, i'm scared you'll be like 'WTH' and you know, ask me to (insert). But to the BEST, now then i believe you're doing this coz u care for me. *sigh* How dumb i was to not trust you... This is INSANE mann! Come on, we're buddies for almost 3 years and yet, i'm acting like a stranger... Come on, i'm totally a DUMBASS.
I really want you buddy. I seriously, D-O-N-T WANT TO LOSE you. You have stood with me like HELL long. Although time flies, look how much we bonded. I can't afford to lose a DAMN GREAT friend like you... Gawsh, guilt just keeps on pumping in my heart.
Its really a complication if you listen in it...
But find the way through and dig it a little deeper....
And voila, you get your answer; an answer that shocks..
That will change your life...
Greatness. Poem found at my bro Lit book. This poem.... definitely... my case.
We talked face to face during recess, yet time stopped us... Sarcasm was layed on me like spit. But what did i do... i can't do anything since i know i'm guilty... all i had to do was ask for forgiveness... and yes, i did. Tried making them understand the situation better but, seriously; to no AVAIL. After skool, went banquet, with them and eat.
Again, Syaril started talking about this in an indirect manner. And i was sarcasted by someone. Wth. Come on, i'm eating right? Can please don't spit sarcasm on me during that kind of period !? Eh, rezeki tak DATANG ah.
Then, PISSED case, after eating went back home but i purposely called SELENGZ accompany go roam JP. Said bye to Syaril only. Hah.
Then, got to know, buddy complained. Haish, i knew my mistakes, i texted her long-essay writing about my guilt, feelings, friendship and yet no replies... Gone case..
This would be her first time if she doesn't forgive me... *sigh* Guess this is the end... maybe. Gonna miss her man. You just don't know how long we're like having HELL fun together... Man, to have it gone just like that... its insane and upsetting. Haish, alright, come on, lets... talk about other... stuff.
So today, many didn't come during Elective. Well, what do u know. Got lowest in class for overall Elective. Haish. DOOM is here man. So tomorrow going watch movie. Like yeah! And also, got audition for emcee of the Kaleidorama thingy. Wow, must KEMBANG ahh. ;)
Kay arh... i seriously... no mood ahh... Kay ahh. Stop here ahh. Take care and Ciaoz. ;)
