Friday, October 3, 2008
exams today...HISTORY AND MATHEMATICS PAPER 1!!!!!
Hey yawwsss ppl. So, um, today i've sat for my HISTORY and MATHEMATICS PAPER 1 exam and i'm unhappy about it. I don't think i tried my best but still, i feel like i could at least pass my exam. Ugghh...this is my problem, i just could not trust my instincts properly. Well, it all goes down to CONFIDENCE....Believe me, this is the most difficult factor i faced. Jus could not get over it.... Well, lets get back to our story, um, ok, then, after school, on the way home, we talked about the answers in our papers. I've got alot of mistakes, alot. I got to learn my other subjects properly and then, i will, make it..... Okay, but then after school, i don't know why and how it happened, but i felt like i wanted to belanja the HAHA members but too bad Hanisah wasn't there. Where did you go, Hanisah? Haixx, i wish you'd follow us just now. But what to do? Her mother maybe would not allow her follow even though she was with us. Um, ok, back to story, after i told them about the BELANJA, they were shocked eventually. Ok, lets do this in a CLEARER manner.Rusydi: Hey guys.....
[quiet..........]
Rusydi: I don't know why..but i feel like BLANJAing you guys...
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All: ARE YOU SERIOUS!!!?
Syaril: You, belanja us!!?
Ranjita: If this is a joke, ITS NOT FUNNY!!?
Vinushah: Wait, i think he's serious......
Rusydi: o.O okey, fine then. IM NOT SERIOUS! IM JUST JOKIN AROUND LIKE I USUALLY DO!!!? [gave them an ignorant look]
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Vinushah: Ok, then. I'll follow. For once, you belanja us, then, its ok luh.
Ranjita: YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY! Rusydi wants to belanja us laaah!!! I'm so happy.
Syaril: Baik uh bro! Thanks uh! Your first time, man!
Well, later something weird happened. When we were at BANQUET, i took out my money and gave them the money but something made me delay in giving them the money. I had to spend alot you see. But still, i promised them. Well, thank god, i have learnt the TRUE meaning of promise. If it wasn't for INSANES, i would still be the worst of me. Thanks ppl. You guys had also helped me change. Um, okay lets get on with the story. Then, i gave them the money but they refused. They did not take the money.
Rusydi: Um, excuse me, do you want this? Isnt this what you guys need in order to eat? Take lahh! Im being sincere lahh.
Syaril: No, its ok. We have our own money.
Ranjita: Yaah, and we don't want to trouble you. Btw, thanks for the sincerity.
Rusydi: ..................... No, take lahh. I owe you guys alot, already.
Vinushah: Its ok lahh. Just take it. We don't want it. Use it on your own and spend it.
Syaril: Make sure, you keep it uh. Don't use every single cent of it.
Rusydi: You can bet on it!
Ranjita: Ok, lets go buy our food.
At that point of time, i felt very speechless. VERY. I owe them alot of stuffs and money but when i feel like paying them back, they refused. Can you believe it? They refused. I felt a sense of.... sense of..... something.. that made me think...that they are caring and nice... Each and every one of them, i felt like we, the HAHA are chained, and no matter how far we are, we are still chained.....together. What is this feeling? What is it? Its my first time having this feeling... Its strange, and yet very weird. Does it have any effect on me? Will i change if i were to trust this feeling? I just, just got to find out what is this feeling and then, when i understood everything, maybe, i would change for the best of me. The BEST. Although im not being my BEST, but still, i have visions that i would change. Change for the best and the BEST of me! I just got to step up into the path and walk without any disturbance. The path...Path of Repent and Change. I WILL start working hard to reach this long and winding road's end... even if it takes years.... Woah, I guess this feeling had motivated me and make me emotional i guess? Monday's Literature END OF YEAR and i shall get my eyes extra BIG, WIDE an BAGGY-EYED. I feel so... one kind right now and i want to stop my post here. I just don't feel like continuing anymore. I had enough. I'm sorry ppl. Byebye and study hard. Ciaoz....................................................................................
